LIFE

Life is getting better. Alhamdulillah. Terima kasih kepada Allah.

Aku tak pernah menyangka akan rasa sebahagia ini selepas satu demi satu perubahan berlaku dalam hidup aku.

Let’s me recap of what had happened before i reach to this phase of life:

Miserable life dengan kekecewaan dan rasa marah terhadap cinta. Words that destroy everything.

The moment that i met Happy Pill where i found my happiness, even there’s ups and down.

Failed PAC. Sangat frust! But I believe, ada hikmah di sebalik apa yang berlaku.

My name was not in the list to sit for M-Test. Kecewa lagi.

Miracle happened. Got KPLI interview for July intake.

Berjaya for KPLI intake July as English teacher. Masa ni la aku dalam dilema. Had a discussion with Happy Pill and I decided to take the offer…. Takmau yang dikejar tak dapat, yang dikendong berciciran. Mana tau kan, ini sebenarnya yang telah ditentukan oleh Allah untuk aku.

Still had an arguement with him sometimes. Tp bagus jugak la, at least boleh dengar his opinion about teachers and teaching. So that I can improve myself and avoid this and that in the future.

16 July 2007- The day I registered as KPLI student. Dihantar oleh Happy Pill. . So much things happened in between and i guess, dont need to tell more. Yang penting, semuanya mengukuhkan lagi rasa kasih dan sayang antara kami. (ops! jiwang!).

Minggu pertama agak merumitkan. Tp aku cuba think positively. Hari-hari call Happy Pill mengadu and he’s the reason why Im still here. Bagi semangat dan suruh sabar.

“Sabar ek? Jadi cikgu kene banyak sabar…”

Support dan kata-kata semangat dari my parent especially my mom. My backbone!

Tapi dalam rasa tertekan tu, ada jugak laa yang seronok. As what i told in my previous entry, my classmate sangat baik dan fun. Sangat senang dengan mereka, and rasa bersemangat untuk belajar. At least, dalam rasa sedih dan rindu tu, ada jugak la yang boleh buat aku gelak.

Minggu kedua, everything getting better. Dah mula kelas dan mula belajar dan dah mula dapat homework. So far, corak pembelajaran menarik. Ngantok tu biasa la… tp 2 way communication really help. Aku kat sini kene belajar few subjek yang berkaitan dengan teaching, English of coz which contains a few syllibus such as grammar, reading development continiuum and writing, enviromental education, psychology educational, pendidikan sivik dan kewarganegaraan, sains, music, pengurusan sumber and few subject yang belum mula lagi. Suka la belajar all subject sebab new things kan?

As a conclusion, Alhamdulillah… aku rasa inilah kebahagiaan yang aku cari. Banyak improvement untuk diri sendiri walaupun masih belum seperfect mana. Segala kelemahan, akan diperbaiki. (those who know me, they will understand what im talking about). InsyaAllah. So far takde langsung perasaan regret even sometime Happy Pill tanye;

“takmau jadik P*T** ke?”

Saya pernah rasa nak tp saya rasa kerjaya guru lebih mulia dan dihormati. I have my own aim, plan and reason why i choose this path of life. I want to educate my own children. I want to be a good mother to my kids and apply what i had learned during the KPLI course. And theres a thousand reason why i want to be a teacher and join this course….

Biarkan masa yang menentukan semuanya….

Salam sayang untuk semua. Jumpa lagik.